I love writing. I write mostly to Jesus. I write and I write and I write.
He listens. So well.
And then He gently turns my fist-pumping confusion, questions, prayers for mercy, and praise for who He is amidst the darkness. He gently turns it all toward Him. About Him.
And so I love writing. I hated grammar, English and Literature every single day of high school in college. I never finished one book and got poor grades in Writing. But at the age of 19, I met Jesus. He sought me out and opened my closed tight heart. I met Him and started writing in journals and haven't quit since.
When I started having babies and going through the adventures of being a military wife, I started blogging. I was lonely. Never alone, just lonely. Whether it was a deployment, nap time, evenings all by myself, or a longing for intellectual thought outside of Little People....I began blogging.
But now it has ended.
My little, very small, part of blog world is coming to a close.
I blogged before blogs were cool and twitter and facebook and pinterest and.........
they did not exist, or were just barely existing.
And now I am delightfully done.
I now have a packed day of intellectual thought from bright exhausting elementary students. I still change diapers and read books to my 4 year old. I also make time for my husband, and our home, and real beautiful people I can hug and touch their face in our home church.
And most days we fight for time to just play, laugh and rest.
I now understand what elder moms told me when all my babies were little. They said it'll always be exhausting and hard, just a different kind of exhaustion. Enjoy those little years.
They were right. They are right.
In place of blogging, I've been building simple digital photobooks, actually printing them and having them for the boys to look at and remember their baby years. I'm working on iphoto slide shows that document our family's journey. I read and read and read books. I hold my baby and cry as I watch my sons grow forward into boyhood.
And so I say thank you. Thank you for reading, for commenting, for encouraging, for praying.
I love blogging. But for now, it's the end. And I just don't want to leave you hangin', wondering if I'll return randomly with a post.
I'm living life. And I plan on making it a beautiful one.